I could hold you forever. In fact, for the majority of these first four weeks of your life, I have hardly put you down. You've blown my heart into a million pieces and reassembled it into a thing of beauty, much larger than before, and overflowing with love, patience, and joy. Your cries and your … Continue reading Dear Daughter
You carried your child to completion. You gave birth. You bled. You cried. You gave all your effort. ---- Now your womb is empty. You're holding your child instead of holding your belly. How do you feel? ---- How do you look? Do you recognize the woman staring back at you? Did her hair change? … Continue reading Discovering Your Postpartum Self
Figuring out how to keep your child alive. Staying awake all day and night just to make sure everything is ok. Running on empty like a champ. Loving every single sound and movement your baby makes. Feeling proud of every full diaper. Almost crying when your baby tries to pass gas and is in pain. … Continue reading New Motherhood Is
Wearing a diaper and loving it. Sleeping for two hours and feeling as though it were twelve. Losing 20 pounds in a week and a half and then staring at the fat on your abdomen knowing that the last 20 pounds are going to take some work. Being scared of bowel movements but rejoicing when … Continue reading Postpartum Is
Ella passed the ABR test in both ears. Her cochlea is ok in her right ear. She still failed the initial test. The audiologist wanted to do the same test again before the ABR test and Ella again failed. This didn't concern the audiologist as much as it had concerned us and she assured us … Continue reading Relief.